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Sitting Shiva with James |
Posted by Brian Beers at 7/27/2005 7:47:00 AM (3 comments left) |
For the past few weeks, and for however long it takes, my wife has been sitting in James. She confessed that doesnât like James. So she decided that she either needed to tear it out or sit in it until she understood the reality of what James wrote. Two years ago we held our son in a quiet room behind the ER, as his body gave up his three-month fight against his congenital heart-defect. This year, ten days after the 2nd anniversary of Josephâs death, my wifeâs father entered the ER, and two days later we again recognized this valley. So when James says âcount it all joyâ he is either completely ignorant and a real jackass or he knows something and is trying to share it. We choose door number two. How we respond to Scripture is a microcosm of how we respond to God. My wife has chosen to allow James to poke and prod her heart âto open her wounds and, she trusts, bring healing. She wants to know God as James did. She wants James 1:2 to ring true in her heart rather than as a clanging cymbal. |
People often seek out comfort from the Scriptures âfrom Psalm 23. But Kristina needs more than a bandage. The world is broken and a sharp edge pierced her soul. The multitude of trivia about what this word does or doesnât mean cannot heal the soul. The knowledge of Scripture that comes through dictionaries and commentaries falls short of the glory of God. They cannot bring satisfaction. Kristina wants to know how James, if he was not sadistic, could write this. What did James know in the midst of all the suffering he saw and experienced that compelled him to write this? This is not a question that can be answered with words. This is a question of the heart. When I was a child, I thought of Scripture as an ultimatum. âThis is Godâs Word. Believe it and be happy about it.â When I became a man, I realized that God desires a love relationship with me. This is why he sent his son as a servant rather than as a conqueror. He wants me to desire him. And this is the purpose of Scripture. I appreciate my wife taking the time to allow this Scripture to soak into her pores. James showed Kristina that we misperceived life in some profound way. We would like to understand James fully, but the heart is not plug-&-play. This truth cannot simply replace some lesser truth previously relied upon. This truth will worm its way to the core of the heart touching and transforming many misconceptions along the way. When it arrives at the core of the heart many things will appear suddenly changed, but it will be the time spent sitting Shiva with James that wrought the change. |