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April, 2006 |
Feeling Sorry for Myself |
Do you want your thyroid with one lump or two? |
Posted by Brian Beers at 4/27/2006 7:42:00 AM (0 comments left) |
Two weeks ago I wrote about the season of sorrows and changes of the season, and last week I found out that I have a 3cm lump on my thyroid. This is very treatable, and I may only lose half my thyroid. Whew! So I have nothing to worry about except the biopsy next Thursday and the surgery to remove the thing. Now I am on the prayer sheet at church, but I donât want to need prayer. Last night I realized that I have been giving God the cold-shoulder. While I heard my name coming from various groups of praying people, my own prayer concerning this lump was reluctant, petulant and blind to Godâs character. |
My unspoken âprayerâ went something like this:
I sent out an email to my family and friends, telling them the news and asking for their prayers. But I donât want to take my lump. Let them pray for me. I am going to act like a child curled up in a chair with his back to the world.. This shouldnât be happening to me. I got many responses to my email. From a friend I have worked with: I hope it gives you some peace of mind to know that over 100 families and I are already lifting you and your family in prayer for healing and for peace. From my sister (sojourning in We will be praying for you (and Kristina and the boys). Hopefully everything will be as simple as possible at this point. It's so convenient that you've gotten over your aversion to needles, eh? I got a number from various relatives enumerating those who have had thyroid difficulties. My favorite, though, came from We will be praying. Peggy had the same thing years ago and had half her thyroid removed and she is still as cute as ever. And thatâ enough to set anyoneâs mind at ease. I have always wanted to be cute, and nowâs my chance. All fun aside. I want to put away my childish ways of thinking and acting toward God. In the weeks to come I want the prayer of my heart to be:
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